Wednesday, November 25, 2009

26th of November

This is the day that i will remember throughout my life...

For about 6 years grandma had left us...everything that happened 6 years ago still appear vividly in my mind...

I will never forgive myself for turning away when u opened your eyes to see the world for the last time. I didn't think so much at that moment...all i want is just to let u have a good rest but i didn't know that u left me just like that...i shouldn't have turned away....i really cried my heart out everytime i thought of u...although u broke the promise we made together but i will still work hard to make this promise a reality...

I Love U forever , GRANDMA !!!!

Thursday, November 12, 2009

Stress before SPM...

Next Wednesday spm will be begin...i keep telling myself to hang on and be strong to face this examination...and i really have to do it....although i really can't stand all this stress anymore but i believe that GOD will continue to give me strength.

Do you all know that stress really can change a person? I really can feel the changes in me... hopefully i'm not facing depression haha. This is the last week before spm and why are u doing this to me? Seriously i'm really tired but my mind keep on thinking of spm....what will happen to me if i don't get good result? Will my future vanished if i don't get good result? All these questions will keep on appearing in my mind...and i seriously going crazy thinking all of these.

I became more emo, moody this few days. I just trying to be happy and nonchalant in front of my family members but seriously my inner soul wasn't doing so. Jie...did u experience all this before your spm....i think u did right....thats why sometimes u were moody and u ignored me...Jie i finally know how u feel....really sorry for so not understanding last time.

But i will try my best to sit for this examination...if i can get good result hopefully i will get into matric....if not maybe i will be doing faundation in science in Aimst, Kedah before doing medicine...coz i really don't want to waste 2 years in Form 6...so thats the only choice >.<

Jia you....MELISSA u can do it.... GOD is always by your side >.<